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  by Eshka 2 years ago

  Well, I've got to admit, I don't have one at the moment - it was smoking! What I have found myself doing instead, though, is something similar to what you've described. I've been taking more time over my appearance, which is not like me at all. I'm not saying I was/am a complete scruffbag, but usually the basics were enough for me - quick shower, brush my hair, brush my teeth, clean clothes. However, for the last four days, seeing as my time isn't spent puffing on a fag, I've been taking more time on myself. I got proper toner and moisturiser for my skin because I decided it was time to take care of it after 6 years of ageing it with cigarettes. I'm lucky in that I don't look 26 - I still get asked for identification when buying wine for God's sake - and I'd like to keep it that way. I've also started looking after my nails, which were always short and ragged while smoking. I'm applying some stuff to them each day to strengthen them up and help them grow. And, I'm also drinking an awful amount of herbal tea - green tea, lapsang souchong, chai, you name it. So I think those things are slowly becoming my new security blanket. The difference is that this time, they're all either harmless or of some benefit to my overall health.
  
  One of my other old security blankets was eating sweets. I've been taking careful steps not to let that habit return in the wake of smoking, it's almost as bad.
  
  I think it's good to have something that you can rely on to make you feel better. It seems that for most women, it's makeup/generally having made an effort in their appearance. It's even better again if that shield is something which does you more good than harm.
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  by Inktrailer 2 years ago

  I don't have any:-( I've been trying to think of one and can't. I smoke but because I like it and I'm addicted, I don't feel any different when I do it. I think the only thing that makes me feel good about anything is when the cat's napping nearby!
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  by Liss 2 years ago

  My personality type really. The knowledge that if something goes wrong I know that (most of the time) I can laugh about it and laugh at my self. I don't take things too seriously, that's probably what gives me the most confidence xxx
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  by Weens 2 years ago

  I used to be exactly like you, and would dress up for a presentation. I don't know why, but it does make you feel different. I was in a position that required smart dress all the time, but I would always put that extra bit of effort in for a presentation or a meeting with the big wigs. It does make you feel different somehow.
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  by Stormbride 2 years ago

  I used to have a "mask" on all the time, sorta like the japanese. I always smiled, even if someone hurt me, I'd never let them know. That smile used to be one of the reason's everyone said I was like a sunray on a cloudy day. Guess I was really good at it. During that time, only 3 people I knew could see through that mask.
  I don't do it anymore. Some people ask me ... 'What happened to your former self?' ... Makes me wonder today if they really bothered getting to know me at all.
  But yes, that used to be my little shield.