Who am I? What am I?
My wife died last December. I have
been mentally wandering around trying to find some reason to keep
going and a direction to go in.
I have done some decorative calligraphy that is going to be in the local village craft show and some artwork on display at a local preserved railway. But where to go from here? I'm scared that noone will like them and thatI shall just give up again.
I want to get back writing again, but I cannot concentrate long enough to get anything meaningful down on paper. I have plenty of ideas, but no confidence.
I have been getting out and about with the dog. We went for a long walk round the Blickling estate today and had a picnic by the lake.
Saw a pair of green woodpeckers and a red kite.
Must go and feed the dog otherwise she will think that her mouth has healed up!
I have done some decorative calligraphy that is going to be in the local village craft show and some artwork on display at a local preserved railway. But where to go from here? I'm scared that noone will like them and thatI shall just give up again.
I want to get back writing again, but I cannot concentrate long enough to get anything meaningful down on paper. I have plenty of ideas, but no confidence.
I have been getting out and about with the dog. We went for a long walk round the Blickling estate today and had a picnic by the lake.
Saw a pair of green woodpeckers and a red kite.
Must go and feed the dog otherwise she will think that her mouth has healed up!


8 Comments
Calligraphy is a great talent, i'm sure people will love it! Don't worry about whether it pleases other people, for now do it because you want to, because you feel it is a healer and because you enjoy it.
As for writing, we all worry that we aren't good enough, me especially. This place is fantastic for getting feedback and support, it's been a lifeline for me.
Confidence grows the more you write. Write and write and read and watch and over time your ideas will develop and batter the inside of your mind to be let out :)
xx
I think its great your doing the calligraphy and artwork, and I'm sure no one will not like them, but even if they do art is about personal expression and not necessarily to make others happy.
I suffer from the same thing as you 'plenty of ideas, but no confidence' but If you just write for yourself to start off with and do not show your work to anyone else for a while this will help you start writing again. Then if you do not like what you have written throw it away and nobody will be none the wiser.
Hope this helped in some small way
Matt - Clockwise
Have you thought about writing to your wife? A well known film star lost her husband about a year ago, there was an article in the Telegraph. She had written every feeling and moment to her husband. It can be therapeutic, if at times painful.
Grief takes its own time and it seems that you are doing eveything you can to live with it. Good luck. Goodnight for now.
http://www.thewordcloud.org/magazine/read/little-gods_245.html
Good luck with the art and calligraphy.
Steve
Is it difficult to fill your days? A colleague retired a few years ago and to fill a few days in the week, acts as a guide in a National Trust property. It's just an idea!
I've only been to Kings Lynn and did a course at East Anglia University once. (I looked up Blickling on the Internet.)
As awful as your feelings are now, they will be material for future writing.
In the meantime love your life and know that you have people who care about you, even though we are strangers in a "virtual world" - we are all still real people.
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